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Part of Speech: verb
Definition: persist, carry on

                         Life is to be lived, not controlled, 

     and humanity is won by continuing to play 

    in the face of certain defeat.  

Ralph Ellison

I've been having so much fun with my journal and new techniques, it seems I've forgotten I have a blog.  Every day brings much of the same: I look for a job in the morning, apply or find nothing, get discouraged, and spend the afternoon with my art journal.  Painting, drawing, cutting, pasting, just like kindergarden.  My mind may be troubled but my emotions run free on the pages of my journal.  It's helped keep me relatively sane, and when I think back to that magical weekend in April with Dyan Reaveley and friends, I feel happy and carefree.  

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journal page - I Want to Know

journal page - Courage

Graduations and celebratory parties are everywhere.  Beth would be graduating from high school and moving on to new things.  I guess in a way she did, just not in the way anyone planned.  I miss her terribly.  I miss her humor and creativity and insight.  I miss her laugh.  I miss seeing her reaction to my latest artistic adventure.  I just miss her.  I continue to go to the LOSS group, and it continues to help.  I continue to heal and I think I will continue to heal for the rest of my life.  Life continues on and I know I will continue to miss Beth for the rest of my life, too.  People say endings are hard but continuing can be harder still. Nothing to do but keep on keeping on.

Journal page - Ups & Downs